Here I am again..it's coming on spring and the time for applying to schools. Anxiety is lifting up its filthy head in my mind as I still have no idea of what I'd want to study. I hate this...hate hate hate hate hate! Why can't I be one of those who know exactly what they want to do with their lives?? I'm so frustrated because of this all.
School started today and now I'm all down again. It's just so typical...I'm ok as long as I'm with my family or somewhere where I don't have to sit all day in a room full of other people. I get all self-conscious and too scared to even ask a question from someone, who I consider to be my mate. Sometimes communicating can just be too hard. And I feel so pathetic because of that. I mean I am pathetic. The way I get in social situations these days is just sad.
...I am sad.
How am I ever gonna survive in this world?