Uninspired

It's been a while since I last posted anything, so I thought I'd give you guys some update. I'm not dead or forgotten about my blog, don't worry. I have had a little break from photography. No particular reason, I'm just very uninspired right now and I have been sick so I haven't really picked up my camera at all lately.

I have learned that forcing inspiration doesn't really work - then it's not inspiration anymore, but just forcing. And even if I do snap a seemingly nice photo in that kind of state, then there's never anything more to that photo. No idea behind it, no soul so to speak. So it's not worth it. It just adds to the frustration that I feel during these times. I'm waiting that excitement to strike again, trying to be patient. It usually works to just empty your mind and not stress about feeling uninspired. Then it'll just strike like a lightning some day and you're back in the saddle again.

The photo shoot with Juni is still on hold. The weekends are really the only time we can get together with no time limits, and even then I sometimes have to go the stable and/or Juni has something else to do and/or something else just happens that you can't predict. It's life, but we will do the shoot eventually! I'm sure of it.

I hope everyone's well and not sick like me! Even though I have had a little silent time from posting to my blog, I still visit all the blogs I follow and read regularly. Hopefully I'll get some new ideas soon and get to make an update about those again for you. :)

Here's a great Katy Perry cover by Bruno Mars. Enjoy!

Or am I a fool who sits alone talking to the moon...?

BRUNO MARS - TALKING TO THE MOON

So I drove to the furthest supermarket last night and bought myself new expensive shoes. I'm quite in love with them. I also have new glasses, new gloves and I got my hair dyed and cut this morning. 

It's been a long and boring Friday evening and I'm in a bad-ish mood. I'm totally feeling this Bruno Mars -song right now. I received his album today in the mail and I'm loving it. 

Hang-over Sunday without the hang-over

I've been feeling a little anxious today...lying on the couch watching TV and thinking things through (which is never a good idea). I feel like I should go see a psychologist or something, my mind feels so screwed up when I have too much time to think.

The way I see myself hasn't been so great lately (different, though, from the not-so-great way I've seen myself before lately) and I have no idea what to do about it. I can't talk about it and if I manage to say something to someone I end up feeling extremely anxious and uncomfortable. It's just too damn personal and I don't even know how to put my thoughts into words most of the time.

That's another problem of mine...I feel sorry for my friends who have to put up with me floating away into some imaginary world or thinking stuff and never being able to form full sentences out of them. Dead Japanese trees indeed....

Oh well, a couple of amazing pieces of music for you guys.

Tonight these cheer me up if anything else doesn't, because they're just so damn good.

Feels like saving the world just the way you are

I've been listening to these on repeat for the whole evening!